Now I know better….
About a year ago today I was in denial about me possibly been pregnant. I was supposed to get my period on the 30th of January 2018 and I just came back from Colombia so I was like maybe my system is readjusting to all the fun I had back in Colombia, well now I know for a fact that wasn’t the case. LOL
There is something your first! it teaches you more than you can imagine, First break up, first love, first trip oversea etc.. After I came out of my denial phase I start researching about everything pregnancy like I didn’t know anything prior. I was a mess, I started worrying which when looking back at I shouldn’t have. I worried because myself and my now husband are in a long distance relationship plus most of our families are back home in Africa, so basically I was by myself all through I was pregnant and due to immigration reasons, my husband couldn’t be with me at the same time I was processing a visiting visa for my mom. Seeing how everything turned out I should have probably planned better instead of worrying. Don’t get me wrong some level of worry comes with the situation but I wasted too much time plus I was also faced with the housing situation. I felt like I was going to choke at any time.
For any mom to be reading this blog, don’t rely on youtube a 100% for your information, its all entertainment, “vlogger” trying to get clicks and views will say almost anything, I made that mistake and it intensified my worries even more. My mom just left back to Nigeria after spending 4months and a week with us, now I’m by myself but have a good idea about caring for a baby and managing time – still learning the ropes of course. I still worry but instead, I concentrate on finding a solution.
The smile on his face sends my worries out of town…