Regrets (Pregnancy Edition)

Now I know better….

About a year ago today I was in denial about me possibly been pregnant. I was supposed to get my period on the 30th of January 2018 and I just came back from Colombia so I was like maybe my system is readjusting to all the fun I had back in Colombia, well now I know for a fact that wasn’t the case. LOL

There is something your first! it teaches you more than you can imagine, First break up, first love, first trip oversea etc.. After I came out of my denial phase I start researching about everything pregnancy like I didn’t know anything prior. I was a mess, I started worrying which when looking back at I shouldn’t have. I worried because myself and my now husband are in a long distance relationship plus most of our families are back home in Africa, so basically I was by myself all through I was pregnant and due to immigration reasons, my husband couldn’t be with me at the same time I was processing a visiting visa for my mom. Seeing how everything turned out I should have probably planned better instead of worrying. Don’t get me wrong some level of worry comes with the situation but I wasted too much time plus I was also faced with the housing situation. I felt like I was going to choke at any time.

For any mom to be reading this blog, don’t rely on youtube a 100% for your information, its all entertainment, “vlogger” trying to get clicks and views will say almost anything, I made that mistake and it intensified my worries even more. My mom just left back to Nigeria after spending 4months and a week with us, now I’m by myself but have a good idea about caring for a baby and managing time – still learning the ropes of course. I still worry but instead, I concentrate on finding a solution.

The smile on his face sends my worries out of town…

Happy New Years!!!

I remember going into 2018, I was at a friend’s house in Bogota Colombia, watching the New year’s countdown with my boyfriend and her husband. My vision board was packed with all I wanted to achieve since I was almost done with school not knowing I was gonna get pregnant in a few days and have my 1st baby in September 2018.

Moral of the story – I still don’t know, lol. All I can say is that trust God and your process. It will produce an incredible outcome even you wont be ready for. My son as opened so many doors in my life I cant even begin to imagine. I am indeed grateful to God for giving me my son.

2019 also as a vision board to appreciate all the little things most importantly.

Happy New Year fellow Bloggers…

We are in August??

Hey Fam!

My life as been going so fast, I can’t believe its August.

How is your summer going?

What have you been up to?

What’s is new in your life?

For me- I have been going through a rollercoaster- I can’t even believe I am here. To be honest, God as been leading me through as my life is taking a different shape but I love it as its making me stronger,more matured and steady in life.

I have already been a strong person but for real these past 4 – 6months have been insane from the pressure, stress, betrayal etc but I can see the light at the end of tunnel – literally! This is for every one going through stormy times, trust the process and be consistent.

I will share my testimony soon it so worth all the struggle!

😁
Summer